I'm stressing about getting this house done. I'm super excited about the way it's coming together, but every time I go out there I have a mild panic attack and wonder how we are going to get it all finished in a month. Anxiety is building.
We are going through the book of Exodus on Sunday mornings and the sermon this past Sunday was about how God is able. I keep telling myself that He's got it under control and has provided abundantly thus far. He has provided. We never dreamed we'd find a place like this in our price range. I know it was rough, but we got an incredible deal. We sold our house less than two weeks after we posted the "for sale by owner" sign in the yard and moved less than a month later... Right during the time when my parents could help us. He provided. I didn't know how we would find a place to rent. The check list seemed impossible: safe neighborhood, three rooms, budget friendly, for just a few months, close to the house, within a limited time....He provided within just a few days of us looking. Also, unlike most renovations that you hear about we have been on budget and been under budget on a lot of big things that made it where we could do other things that we wanted to do... God provided. He had blessed us with people who have given generously of their time to helped Josh at the house on a weekly (and sometimes daily) basis. The list just goes on and on: God is a good provider.
Before when I've studied the children of Israel I've felt judgment for a people who saw the Red Sea part and still chose to question God's provision and power. As we study the book of Exodus now I'm finding that I'm not quite as harsh on them. I see my own anxiety after the way God had worked. Every time I go to the house and get panicky I'm like the children of Israel telling Moses "...But there are giants in the land".
In many ways the painting, flooring, and cleaning still feel like giants. God didn't deny that there were giants. He only wanted faith from His people that He would overcome the giants. I'm starting to tell myself what was preached Sunday and what God has already proven to me...He is able.